Hello Everyone.
HAHAHAHAHAHAH! Such a corny opening welcome message. “hello everyone”. * knock on self head*
I was blog-hopping.. reading about some malay marriage custom thingy. Dowries, marriage loans, family planning, etc etc etc. . .
I’m not ready. Period. But I NAK KAHWIN. but… i’m not ready. Simply because, my future is blurry. i’m not given the power to concur if the person who will be my life partner. I’m not able to be assured who will be the perfect match for me, who will guide me tru’ Allah’s way, who will provide and shower me with love blessings and wealth,who can take good care of me til the day i close my eyes and u know the rest.
Yes i’m seeing someone. But i always have this… u know.. instincts and thoughts that he may not be the one for me. So I’m still unsure. My mom has mother’s instincts, telling me that the guy i’m loving now may not be in relationship with me for long. I’m kinda sad. I love him. Dearly. But why do i always feel so insecure. I want to cry now. If he’s nt the one for me, why is it so hard for me to part with him? Why am i not strong enough to be single-status? Why do i keep going back to him after our “time-off”? why why why? I can make him laugh, and i had even made him cry and mad. And his temper is most-of-the-time uncontrollable. Yet i still forgive him. MY GOSH~ but.. above all, he does make me feel complete. i dunno man~ i dunno. He loves me dearly too.
I just hope the right one will come to me. and I hope i’m given strength to face challenges and obstacles in front of me.
